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Hello, I’m back!  Home and recovering from one of the most horrible episodes in my short life.  I’m going to write about it in the hope that this helps me process the trauma, but f…
Progress update:Pain down, tubes gradually coming out and I’m walking laps around the ward. Hopefully will be discharged midweek. Been told to eat around 6 small meals a day or graze. Does anyone h…
No blogs recently as I’ve been in hospital for emergency bowel surgery. In until c.late next week. Message for details if intending to visit.…
Today’s blogpost/diary entry/journal/whinge is brought to you by intense waves of abdominal pain.  Yes I’m ok - it’s probably due to bowel fluctuations caused by a combination of chemo and the primary…
It’s a slight exaggeration to say that I’ve done absolutely nothing over the past few days, but it’s not far off. A combination of fluctuating fatigue and reluctance to expose myself to cold weather …
I can’t claim to have mastered much in my relatively short life.  But I am very good at suffering.  I don’t remember of course, but at 28 weeks gestation, it’s safe to say I was born in pain.  It’s li…
I’m not sure if the spoon analogy is used enough to require explanation or not but I know all about it now - thanks to a few spoonfuls of experiential reality. Apparently it was first used by someone …
Yesterday was a good day…I think…I’m not really sure what one is any more as it’s been a while since I’ve had one.  It started with a bit of exhaustion - the kind where I opted to blend my p…
Yesterday, I made it outside for the first time in five days.  The occasion for this tentative reintegration into society: a work meeting. I’ll predict some responses:‘Why?’You didn’t nee…
Sunday was just like any old Sunday.  Well - not like the good old ones of a year or three ago - I didn’t run 50k before breakfast - in fact, for the foreseeable future, it’s safe to assume the zero p…
Well, as Day 2 of cycle 2 draws to a close, it seems like things are  (at least initially) less debilitating than the last.  The tingles are either coming down or I’m better at managing them.  Sicknes…
Today was utterly absurd and I still haven’t gotten my head around it. It started innocuously enough with meeting my friend Jude, who had travelled all the way from Canterbury on a ridiculously ear…